ever felt tht everything is too late?
things tht u could have said n done...now means nothing anymore?..

why do human always have to wait till the last minute...?
at least y do i always think tht there's still time..when there's not!!

this has always been a very bad habit of mine.
i leave my chores to the very last minute...i extend and give excuses to my due dates...
i take things n people for granted...

so many times i told myself ive learned my lesson..
but my absent mind tricked me again n again to repeat the same old mistakes..

frenz have come n go unexpectedly...
many times its just too late for me to do anything..
im sorry..
im sorry i wasnt there when u needed a fren
im sorry ive been missing in action for such a long period
im sorry i din seem to care enough
im sorry...for breaking all the promises...
there are so many things unspoken between u n me
there are so many things undone...

now
i can only wish u all the best
n keep u in my prayers everynite...

ive missed u
n i will always be missing u..
take care...

come to think of it, i am a very blessed child
i am blessed with wonderful people around me
who always care, and never fail to make me laugh...=)

when i was in Tsun Jin primary school
i was blessed with innocent frenz, that grew together with me
first crush, playing in the school band, singing in the choir, writing lots of homeworks,running around the field...gosh i miss those days, when i was "small"..

when i reach Chong Hwa high school
i was blessed with a crazy bunch of frenz
they shared my tears n laughters, they drew a beautiful picture in my life
n im thankful, tht some of them are still very much part of my life...

when i went to new zealand, i met doinkie, i met the msian gang, i met CLC youth...
all of them, took away my fear, my loneliness n sorrows...
giving me whole new perspective of life and frenship
altho we hardly contact anymore, but i miss them...i miss you doinkie, i pray tht ure doing well...

coming back again, immediately i got a job with my uncle
tho the beginning was stressful and tiring...
but again, a couple months later i was blessed with the funniest colleagues ever..
i actually looked forward to work..n everynite, i went home with a tired jaw...coz we laughed TOO MUCH!!

entering in to UCSI, the first week, i was already blessed with a gang..
the married gang...
have i really talked about them in my blog yet?..
yea i did..hahaha...gosh we are the most colorful gang ever...
all kind of personality combine together with 3 sanguines...
we create major sound pollution..=p

and then i got another job
went around the klang valley to put up "1 low flat rate" stickers and posters..
it was fun..haha..great experience n wonderful ppl ive met..
altho tiring...but i love the experience
soon after that i was again working for digi, registering for prepaid users..
there i met michelle...the most talkative gal ive ever met...
we can literally talk NON STOP for the WHOLE FREAKING DAY!!!
of coz, we made up a lot of jokes...=D

having my own tuition class now in Chong Hwa..
i am blessed with 4 mischievious yet lovely students..
i thank God for them..

n now, working in the Kuala Lumpur International Book Fair in PWTC
again, i was blessed with the .. erm, funniest jokers around...
seriously, the things that they say, are just hilarious...
i look forward to work everyday..eventho i am still unhappy with the pay..
but because this job has brought so much joy into my life, and have broaden my experiences...i am happy =)
i have met some really cool people here...people that i wish can be my frenz forever..

n for those that have ALWAYS been in my life
God has been very generous..
ppl in church...i always feel home when i am around them..
but when i am not, i feel so distance from them...
i guess thts due to my constant missing-in-action..

last but not least, my family..
my mum...i cant imagine my life without her...
she's been my pillar n shelter, i can never figure out how she's able to do it...
she's funny she's cute, she's talented she's brave...
she's the most intelligent person ive met..

i thank God for a generous God...muackz!!

and so i received an offer today
an offer to be someone everyone hopes or wants me to be
i am flattered, and honoured to be given this opportunity
but y am i not really thrilled about it?

because this offer requires a heavy responsibility
which i am not sure if i am ready for it
because this offer requires major sacrifices
which i am not sure if i want to make

here i am in a dilemma
do i want to be someone tht everyone else would be happy that i am to be?
of course, i would be happy too...eventually...
or do i want to be someone i really want to be...?

then again, since when do i know wats best for me?
n since when did i know who i want to be?...

i know i must receive tht offer, because...tht is something i once long for...
because tht offer will bring me far...n i mean really far...
but, wat would this offer mean...if it is without the one i love...
y do they have to be so hard on me...
or rather, wat have i done to myself...

finals is in 4 days...
i must do well
meanwhile
goodnite...

its officially 1 year now
not too long not too short
but everytime i see u, my heart still beat faster than usual

i can still remember the 1st day u held my hand
i still remember our 1st kiss on the hill
n i still blush everytime u say u love me...

heeppo darling...

ill always love u...

been watching the movie Honey

if u love dancing
watch it
if u love music
watch it
if u like Jessica Alba
watch it
it u have nothing better to do
watch it anyway

this show gav me inspiration
it lit up the fire in me once again
the fire to dance
to perform a good show

its been awhile now since i dance
everytime i groove with the music infront of the big mirror in my house
i know i got the talent
i really think i do
it is when im dancing i feel real
it is when i dance i can believe in myself once again
i know i had it n i want it back

can u believe in me?
can u give me the support i need?
can u feel the passion in me?
im going to make this big
i know i will

when ure really determine to do something
something ure passionate about
ur true beauty will shine
i dun believe in make up anymore
nor the fashion everyone is hanging into right now
when u do the things u do
things that make ur heart beat so fast
u'll look beautiful even in jeans n shirt
n i want to look beautiful again...
im gonna do it!

so if u've got something to do
do it with all ur heart
dreams do come true
maybe we can work together =)