ive been faithful to you for...almost, or not at least 3 years now.
but i have to go....
it doesnt feel right at all...
but i really have to go...
because...
YOU SUCK!!!

did you know everytime i upload a pic, i have to sign in to my photobucket?
i have to click this icon-wait for the box to upload-choose photobucket n then sign in-thn i have to browse n upload my picture-after uploading, i would have to copy the link so that it can upload to my blog!!
and the process goes again as i upload another pic, so you can imagine how much time it took me to finish my yesterday's post @_@

sorry lar blogdrive...i have to transfer...
im going with http://st3phi3li3w.blogspot.com  ...
please do not forget the memories we've shared for the past 3 years, they were very special and dear to me...

I LOVE YOU!!!

people say i cant take a proper picture...

well i personally...simply DO NOT AGREE!!

i may have said some stupid things
and i apologise for it
but knowing that u wouldnt hold me back
it hurts so much

u din say a word
u left me hanging
u din even hold me close to u

u left me crying
u left me screaming inside
u were right beside me, but u left me alone

did u know i wish things would just end there n there?
both of us are suffering, there's no reason to keep this going

but when i look at u
i know i can never do this to you
uve been so special to me
how will i ever have the courage to let u go...

i tot my blog would expire tim...
i doubt if anyone still comes here, but today my blogging spirit has return.

PMS is something gals have to go through every freaking month
it is foreseeable, but unavoidable...
its painful

last nite i successfully annoyed you again...
annoy wouldnt be the world, i pissed you off din i?

i said we were becoming strangers...
i was exaggerating, and u were disappointed
u said after 19months, i still said we were strangers

i said you are always far away...
i shud have realise that long ago, you got angry
u said its been so long already

i said y do i have to share our time with your friends...
i shud have stand in your shoes, you got upset
u said i meet my frenz everyday in college, but u have no fren in ur work place
u asked if i think u like your working life...
i could feel your pain immediately...

we are the same age, but i get to enjoy life with so many other frenz everyday
and you, are stuck at the shop worrying about sales everyday...

today, u msged me and encouraged me for my mc session in the morning
you forgave me again
and you were so gentle on the phone just now...

you changed, to be more patient
n yet i keep squeezing more out of u
i dont know how much you can take it...
but i really want to thank you...for being my boy...

ppl say my biggest weakness is tht im too emotional
i always tell people, i am an emotional gal

ppl ask me y
i say its coz of PMS

i guess gals just have this priviledge
the priviledge to get all emotional but need not to bear the consequences

but what i din realise
this is costing me too much
as well as people around me

y can i be all happy happy crazy crazy in front of everyone else
but when i come home, i can not talk to mum at all
n i can be all nasty to him
why?

because they are the closest people to me
im comfortable with them
i reveal the true self to them
the tired, stressed and emotional side of me after being a whole day's entertainer

i havent been talking to mum for days
y? i have no idea
there werent any argument at all
i know she's unhappy abt something with me, i have no idea wat..

before going to sleep is the only time i can talk to him
i dont like the idea of him being so busy during the day
so busy i find it abit hard to understand
at nite he gets so tired, n lately ive been so emotional
we cannot talk no more...

i hate this
its bad enough we're not seeing each other
now we cant even talk...
i miss him... ...

n mum...i dunno y she's not talking with me...
she hates me...
he hates me too...

...because im an emotional B#$%^...